Can you believe it? Christmas is next week already. And, so far no snow. I’m looking forward to some time off work. I will be off starting the 24th and don’t have to return until January 4.
I’m still struggling with being at work. Some friends have suggested that I get a different job. In all honesty, the vacation is what keeps me working here. I have been here 26 years now and I have 6 weeks of vacation to use in a year’s time. I wouldn’t be able to find a new job that would give me that kind of vacation right away. I can’t see me going back to only one or two weeks. My job is also not terribly far from home. So what’s my problem!? What I keep telling myself each morning is that it could be worse. I could be back in that hospital again. Lord knows I don’t want to go back there again.
On to another subject, tomorrow is my 6 year weight loss surgery anniversary. I had the gastric sleeve done 12/15/09. I continue to struggle with my weight. I had gotten to a low of 253. Now I’m up to 310. Yes, I had some regain, actually quite a lot. My health insurance pays for my husband and me to go to Weight Watchers so that’s good. We weigh in on Saturday mornings. My last weigh in, I had gained 1 lb. I didn’t get upset about it. Prior to that I had been slowly losing each week. I rarely feel hungry. I eat because I know I need the nutrition.
So back to Christmas, I imagine many already have their shopping done. Not us! I have no idea what to get my two adult kids. It was so much easier when they were young. Some days I miss them as young kids. But there are other times that I’m glad their adults. Like when I was hospitalized. There’s times when my husband and I will go shopping or get invited somewhere and we witness some other couples young kids and how loud and obnoxious they are. And I think, boy I’m glad our kids are adults. I hope to have grandkids someday. My oldest is still going to school and she isn’t married yet, but she does have a nice man in her life. It is my hope that they’ll have kids someday. My youngest has voiced she doesn’t want kids.
For newbies to my blog, I have been hospitalized more than once for mental issues. They finally found the right med combination so I have been doing well. I still get to feeling down or I get some anxiety. But nothing compared to how it was during hospitalization. I take Cymbalta, Haldol, Benztoprine to help with some side effects I was having with the Haldol, and lastly Trazodone for sleep. I used to hate taking any kind of meds, but now I’m more than willing because I don’t want to be like I was. I was far from myself.
With that, I’ll bring this blog post to a close.
Peace – Love – Smiles