Some News

It’s been quite a while since my last post.  I really should try getting back to blogging as I do find writing to be healing.  I have some rather big news to share.  I received this news on October 3.  So what is it!?  Well, after 28.5 years with my employer, I was told my position was being eliminated.  To be honest, I cried in that office with the HR rep beside me and my bosses boss in front of me.  My severance package lay open in front of me and tears streamed down my cheeks.  I grabbed the Kleenex offered to me and wiped away the tears and tried the best I could to compose myself.  This was devastating news and difficult to hear.  Both ladies were very nice about it and told me they could take as much time as needed to go over the paperwork that lay in front of me.  They explained that I would be paid through the end of the month, my last day would be October 31st.  I would receive 4 months of health benefits and 3 months of outplacement services to help with resume writing and job placement.  I would also have access to unemployment information sessions and other helpful sessions which they encouraged that I take advantage of.  These items were outlined in the paperwork.  After our discussion, I left her office and chose to take the remainder of the day off.  I proceeded to head out and was caught by my boss.  He led me into a conference room and we chatted for a bit.  He said he was so sorry this was happening and offered to help with my resume and being a reference for my resume.  He assured me I had marketable skills and I would have no problem finding employment.  However, I didn’t have that confidence.  After our chat, I left.

My first stop was my therapist office.  I knew I couldn’t wait until the end of the month for my next appointment.  My anxiety shot up and truth be told, so did my depression.  To my surprise, my therapist had an opening that afternoon.  I took it!  From there, I went to where my husband was working and shared the news with him.  He was in shock too.  For the first time in years, he’ll be seeing if he can get health insurance for the family through his employer.  He currently has multiple jobs.  He drives charter bus and he also drives for Lyft.  He also works in an auto garage for a friend.  He definitely keeps busy.  He also manages a fireworks store; however, the season just ended for that so he is done with that job until the end of December.  And then, he’ll only work it for two weeks for the New Year.

I returned to my therapist office for my appointment.  I shared the news with her and she was surprised too.  We talked about it and my feelings.  I cried a bit more.  I told her that I figured I would retire from that company.  I told her I was afraid that I might not find a job that I was scared because I’ve only ever worked at that job.  I started there just before I graduated high school.  It’s all I know.  She advised I take a little break, even through the holidays and start the search in January.  Collect unemployment.  I thought it sounded like a good idea.  Time went on and here it is, the 24th.  I’m on my last week of work and to be honest, I don’t feel like working…at all.  I changed my last day to the 27th – this Friday.  I’m still getting paid through the 31st though.  I’ve started to think about school again and the possibility of going back.  I’ve looked into some online programs through Baker College here in Michigan.  I already have college debt and still no degree.  Returning to school would put that debt on hold until I did finish with school.  By then hopefully, I would find a better paying job and could then pay back the loans easier.  School would be easier to focus on without a job to worry about.  I’m definitely thinking about it.  What do you think?  Am I too old?  I’m 46.

Something else I’ve started back up is reading.  I finished two books recently.  “Breaking Norms” by Mita Balani and “Turtles all the Way Down” by John Green.  I recommend both.  “Breaking Norms” falls into the LGBT genre so if you’re open to that, it’s a great story.  I really enjoyed it.  “Turtles all the Way Down” is Young Adult.  Hey, I’m still young, right!?  I’ve found enjoyment in reading.  Through Bookbub and Goodreads, I’m finding several books I want to read.  I’m trying to decide what I want to read next.  Do you like to read?  Are you on Goodreads?  You should look me up?  Goodreads

That’s it for now.  Thanks for reading/following.

Peace & Love,

Dottie

About DorothyMarie

I'm 47 years old, divorced with two adult daughters. My youngest lives with me. Between the two of us, we have five dogs. Two Pitbull Terriers (Oaklee and Aspen), one German Shepherd (Xena), one long haired Husky (Kaya) and one Pomeranian (Teddy Bear). I started school in January of 2018 and am studying Psychology. I have a long road ahead of me but am excited about it.
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