Here we are at Day 9! Today I went out to the lake again. I’m not terribly far from Lake Michigan. I love being by the water. It is so soothing for me. And aside from gas, it costs nothing. I drive a Ford C-Max hybrid which is really good on gas too. The nice weather won’t be here for long so I’m taking advantage of it. On the way back from the lake, I stopped to visit my mom’s and grandparents graves. They’re all on one family plot. I just sat there and cried. I asked for their guidance. Tears are exhausting but healing.
Today’s topic is “Something you’re proud of from the past few days…” Oh my gosh, this is a horrible topic if you ask me. The past few days have been rather rough considering the job loss. I guess one thing I can be proud of is the fact that I haven’t let my depression overcome me. I’m getting out, I’m not isolating or staying in bed all day, which I could very easily do. Instead, yesterday, I made it to two of my groups. In the morning, I attended Girl Talk, which is my weekly bible study. And, last night, I attended GriefShare, which is a grief and loss support group. I think this is my fourth round of the GriefShare group. I really enjoy the fellowship, prayer and the friendships I’ve made. And loss doesn’t have to be the loss of a person. It could be the loss of a pet or the loss of a job or marriage, as in my case. A loss is a loss and there’s grieving involved.
I’m proud of a few other things as well. Today, I changed my phone number. I needed to do this because I feel I needed to do it as part of a fresh start. Additionally, I was getting so many “No Caller ID” calls. I also created a new Instagram account and disabled my old one. I had started my old account back in 2012! Isn’t that something?! I was also trying to figure out if there was a way to switch over my YouTube videos to another account, but there really isn’t. I’d have to download the existing videos and then re-upload them to the new account and I don’t think I want to go through all that hassle. I think I’ll just leave my YouTube account as it is.
I’m not quite sure why I’m feeling this urge to purge a lot of my online stuff. But it feels pretty good.
Well, I suppose I should call it a night soon. I have my therapy appointment in the morning at 8 a.m.! It’ll be interesting to fill her in on my recent job loss. I just know I’m going to cry.
Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and smiles.