Day 9 – 30 Days of ME!

Hello Readers!

Here we are at Day 9!  Today I went out to the lake again.  I’m not terribly far from Lake Michigan.  I love being by the water. It is so soothing for me.  And aside from gas, it costs nothing.  I drive a Ford C-Max hybrid which is really good on gas too.  The nice weather won’t be here for long so I’m taking advantage of it.  On the way back from the lake, I stopped to visit my mom’s and grandparents graves.  They’re all on one family plot.  I just sat there and cried.  I asked for their guidance.  Tears are exhausting but healing.

Today’s topic is “Something you’re proud of from the past few days…”  Oh my gosh, this is a horrible topic if you ask me.  The past few days have been rather rough considering the job loss.  I guess one thing I can be proud of is the fact that I haven’t let my depression overcome me.  I’m getting out, I’m not isolating or staying in bed all day, which I could very easily do.  Instead, yesterday, I made it to two of my groups.  In the morning, I attended Girl Talk, which is my weekly bible study.  And, last night, I attended GriefShare, which is a grief and loss support group.  I think this is my fourth round of the GriefShare group.  I really enjoy the fellowship, prayer and the friendships I’ve made.  And loss doesn’t have to be the loss of a person. It could be the loss of a pet or the loss of a job or marriage, as in my case.  A loss is a loss and there’s grieving involved.

I’m proud of a few other things as well.  Today, I changed my phone number.  I needed to do this because I feel I needed to do it as part of a fresh start.  Additionally, I was getting so many “No Caller ID” calls.  I also created a new Instagram account and disabled my old one.  I had started my old account back in 2012!  Isn’t that something?!  I was also trying to figure out if there was a way to switch over my YouTube videos to another account, but there really isn’t.  I’d have to download the existing videos and then re-upload them to the new account and I don’t think I want to go through all that hassle.  I think I’ll just leave my YouTube account as it is.

I’m not quite sure why I’m feeling this urge to purge a lot of my online stuff.  But it feels pretty good.

Well, I suppose I should call it a night soon. I have my therapy appointment in the morning at 8 a.m.!  It’ll be interesting to fill her in on my recent job loss.  I just know I’m going to cry.

Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and smiles.

❤ Dottie


About DorothyMarie

I'm 48 years old, divorced with two adult daughters. I own one Pitbull Terrier named Oaklee Anne. It’s just her and me right now and it’s still an adjustment!
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