Day 13 – 30 Days of ME!

Hello Readers!

Here I am with an extra late post again.  I’m good at this.  I just finished working on school work again too.  Today I went to church and after services, we had a tailgate party to welcome the Fall season.  I’m not ready for Fall or the cooler weather.  The party was supposed to be outside, but the mosquitoes are so terrible around here that the party was moved inside instead.  However, the hotdogs were still cooked outside on the grill.  I managed to eat part of a hotdog, some jello and a few bites of an Oreo cookie dessert.  I’ve not been able to eat a whole lot.  You all know I had weight loss surgery so my stomach is significantly smaller.  However, I’m supposed to be getting in 60-80 grams of protein a day and it’s not happening.  Not even close.  From church, I went out to Lake Michigan AGAIN! And, again it was really busy and there was nowhere to park. I was so disappointed.  So, I just came home.  Spent my day on laundry, school work, cleaning the bathroom, etc.

On to the topic of the day.  It is “A letter to someone who has hurt you recently.”  This is not a good topic for me.  I had to write an anger letter to my ex as part of my therapy, but that would be a bad thing to post on here.  People that read this know my ex and that could be quite disastrous.  So I’m trying to think if there’s someone else who has hurt me. Actually, there is.  Of course, I’m not naming any names.

Dear Nameless,

It has been some time since we have talked or texted and I’m not sure I understand why.  We had shared a common bond.  And we had several things in common as well.  I remember our conversation and how excited we were to find out just how much we had in common.  I thoroughly enjoyed spending time with you.  It was easy to share my feelings with you because you understood how I felt.  We went through such similar trials.

I thought we had a strong friendship and we did for a bit.  Then something happened and you just stopped talking to me. You also stopped responding to my texts.

I no longer existed in your world and I have no idea what on earth I did.  Or if I did anything at all?  Maybe I didn’t.  But the fact that you don’t respond really kills me on the inside.  It’s heartbreaking.  There’s things about me that you knew that nobody else did.

I miss that friendship.  If I did something, I’m sorry.  Perhaps I was overbearing. But if so, you could just tell me. I can handle it. I’d rather know you’re okay and happy with life than to be completely ignored.  It just doesn’t seem fair.

Signed,

Heartbroken

Perhaps this friend was one of those that were only there for a reason or season as they say.  But that doesn’t make it hurt any less.  Losing friends are hard!!  I still secretly hope that this person would message me out of the blue and just say “Hey, I’m okay. Thanks for caring about me.”

Well that’s all I have for today/tonight.

Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.  Be safe!

❤ Dottie

 

About DorothyMarie

I'm 47 years old, divorced with two adult daughters. My youngest lives with me. Between the two of us, we have five dogs. Two Pitbull Terriers (Oaklee and Aspen), one German Shepherd (Xena), one long haired Husky (Kaya) and one Pomeranian (Teddy Bear). I started school in January of 2018 and am studying Psychology. I have a long road ahead of me but am excited about it.
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