Today has been rather challenging I must say. I did make it to church this morning. I haven’t heard from my friend in Marquette, MI since last week Saturday and he was supposed to call me on Wednesday and didn’t. He generally calls me every Saturday and he didn’t call yesterday. And he generally writes often too and I haven’t heard from him since the 17th and that’s so unlike him. Ok, I have to admit this person is in prison. He writes via jpay.com. So I’m incredibly worried. I hope he hasn’t done something to make him lose his privileges. I am friends on Facebook with his mom so I asked her if she has heard from him and she hasn’t either. She said she would call the prison tomorrow if she still hasn’t heard from him. I asked her to fill me in and let me know that he is okay. That’s my concern.
I’ve been extra emotional today. I cried before church. I cried after church off and on. I was supposed to go to a baby shower and I couldn’t bring myself to go. I just wasn’t in the spirit. I feel horrible too. I was also supposed to meet a friend to do this role play assignment for school, but I just wasn’t feeling up to it. So now, I’ll have to meet with her tomorrow. The last day of class. Nothing like waiting until last minute right!? I’m so good at procrastination.
I thought perhaps that I was just having one of my normal emotional “down” days that I get from time to time. Well, turns out I started my monthly lady time. Sorry if that’s TMI. The thing is, I haven’t had one of those since June! So it caught me off guard. But it does help explain the overly emotional episodes and the feeling like crap.
I suppose we can get on to today’s topic…”Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future.” What would I write about if I were already married? I seriously thought about skipping today or making up a different topic. I suppose I have dreams about my knight in shining armor coming to rescue me from this difficult situation I’m in. That situation would be no income and lots of bills 😉 . And, no I’m not just looking for a sugar daddy. Please don’t be confused by that. I want my knight in shining armor to be somewhat close in age to me, hard working, compassionate, faithful, a good communicator, and have a sense of humor. We would be a team. I would work as well if I ever find a job. I see myself probably moving from here. I see life changing as I know it right now. But change is good, right!? Who is my knight in shining armor? I’m not telling. Does he exist? Perhaps.
That’s all I’m saying on the subject.
Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.