Leave it to me to follow up my post of yesterday talking about feeling strong after my divorce with a post of feeling lonely. Let’s all just take a moment to laugh out loud! Today has been a long and quiet day at home. I’m not going to really complain about that. I got quite a bit of school work done so that’s good.
I browsed Facebook and noticed that today is my niece and nephews one year wedding anniversary. I can’t even believe one year has gone by already. I posted a happy anniversary wish and in my wish I commented that I couldn’t wait until I found a love like theirs. They are so happy.
I noted some memories that Facebook always throws at you. Sometimes these are very difficult to look at and quite frankly some of them I absolutely hate! I know hate is a strong word, but truly some of the memories Facebook throws at me are so hard to look at. My marriage is over and done, why throws that stuff at me and re-open those wounds? I know Facebook doesn’t know, it’s entirely innocent, but still. I don’t like to see them.
Seeing my niece and nephew so happy and I also see another couple a lot that posts pictures and it just makes me feel so lonely. I know I was only divorced this year and I shouldn’t push things. But I will admit that I wouldn’t mind having someone to cuddle with at night. Someone to kiss and hug, someone to tell me things are going to be okay. I really miss hugs.
I know all of this is out of my control and it’s in Gods hands and in his timing. I have to be patient. I just feel as though the proverbial door has been slammed shut for a while now. A door needs to open soon! A new job, a new love…both! A new life! How about that? Hmmm…they say change is good.
So here I am… knock, knock, knock! Maybe that’s the problem? Maybe I should stop knocking. Maybe I’ll just stand here and patiently wait for God to open the door.
Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.