It’s been a few days hasn’t it? Since that 30 day challenge ended, it seems as though I’ve been out of ideas on what to write about. My life is just not very exciting it seems. It’s just me day in and day out. Well, the dogs are here too, but they don’t talk. Yesterday I spent the entire day doing school work. I tried doing some work on Friday but the site was down so I was unable to get in and do any. I fell a little behind as a result. I completed my final presentation and recorded it and got it uploaded to YouTube. I’m going to log on and see what the professor had to say about it and a little while. This is the final week of this class. I have two assignments left to do. I have to write a 5-6 page paper and I have to respond to a forum post. I have until tomorrow night at 11:59 p.m. My next class is Introduction to Fine Arts. That should be an interesting class. It starts on Tuesday.
Today, after church I decided to take another ride out to the lakeshore. I intended to go to a new park out there in Ferrysburg; however, when I got there it was packed. There were no parking spots available. So instead, I went down the road further to North Beach Park. I hadn’t ever been to this park before and it was right on Lake Michigan. Due to it being pretty cold outside, there weren’t many people there. I got outside and walked along the beach a bit and took a couple pictures. I also took some video and posted to my YouTube channel. I was feeling really down and depressed and on the verge of tears. That’s a big part of the reason why I took a trip out there. The water is always soothing to my soul. Being behind on all my bills and not having a job and having no luck getting one is really starting to take its toll on me. I applied for assistance with my utilities (heat and electric), but was denied because I didn’t make enough payments within the last six months. I’m here to tell you that the main reason for that is due to divorce and trying to adjust to a single income and then no income. I couldn’t believe it! I was so disappointed. Some things just don’t make sense to me sometimes. I don’t qualify for hardship assistance on my mortgage or credit cards because I have no form of income. Seriously things just don’t make sense. I mean really! And I’m not disabled and I’m not a senior citizen and I don’t have small children. So I’m just stuck here on my own little island to suffer. I just went off on a tangent….my apologies. Let me get back to my adventure.
Here are some a few pictures I took at the lakeshore. It was so breezy and cold. It was probably about 42 or 43 degrees, but felt a lot colder. I probably should have had a winter jacket on.
Honestly, I love being by the water! It really does do well for my mood. I felt better when I left. The sun peaked out for a little while I was there. I was glad for that.
After I left there, I stopped at Nunica Cemetery. I don’t think I mentioned this before but I volunteer for findagrave.com. I take photos of graves. There was a request for a photo for that cemetery. That also happens to be where my grandparents and great-grandparents are buried so I figured I could visit them as well. I walked all over looking for the grave of this John guy but I had no luck finding him. I’m not sure if I’m going to go back another day when maybe it’s a little warmer or not. They give you 14 days to do the assignment. I also have the option of giving up the assignment to someone else. I’m not sure what I want to do. With the walking at the beach and the cemetery, I was able to make a whole $1.28 in sweatcoin (2,202 steps). Better than nothing. I’m up to $44.96 which isn’t bad for someone who hasn’t been out walking much. If you’re interested in checking this app out, here’s my link sweatcoin. I’d much appreciate it.
That pretty much wraps up my adventures for the day. I’m home now and having my first meal of the day. Italian style wedding soup (from a can).
Okay so I’m going back to my depression just a bit. Had I just come home right after church today, I’m almost certain I would’ve climbed into bed and laid there the rest of the day. I would’ve isolated myself and that’s not something I want to do. I do not want to get any worse. I certainly don’t want to end up hospitalized again. Been there…done that…more than once and I don’t want to do it again. Especially since I don’t have a husband anymore to take care of me. I hate the idea of asking for money, but I don’t know what to do at this point. If there is anyone out there willing to donate to my cause, I would forever be grateful and I plan to keep track so that I can pay back once I have established employment. I figure the best way is through my PayPal account this way there is no percentage taken away. I absolutely hate asking for money. Please try not to think any less of me. Trust me, I feel awful as it is. God bless you and if you’re not a believer, then may the sun shine upon you.
Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.