Life is Hard

Hello friends! So, I’m not writing nearly as much as I’d like to. I didn’t know what to title this post but someone commented on my last post indicating life is hard and you know, it’s so true sometimes! Right now, I’m going through a tough storm. I feel like I’ve been weathering a storm for over a year since I initially lost my job of 28 years. I think that’s when it all started. Then it escalated when my now ex told me he wanted out of the marriage of nearly 27 years. He left and I got the house because it was inheritance from my great grandparents that got us the house. However, with no job it was impossible to pay the nearly $1,000 payment. And I know I’ve mentioned it before, but I didn’t qualify for spousal support. Why? Because I was the main breadwinner for all those years up until I lost my job. So unfair! Life…is hard!

I was happy when I landed a job in June. But then disappointed when they let me go in September because they couldn’t afford to keep me. And I wasn’t there long enough to collect unemployment.

I worked at Meijer for so darn long. I was so “Meijerized”. Finding employment was so hard! I didn’t find anything again until November. That was Shipt Shopping. It didn’t pay a lot, but it was something.

In January, I applied to do Uber Eats Delivery. I like that much better. I can get paid out each day. It also doesn’t pay a ton, but it’s something. I recently connected with an employment agency to help me find work. I had an interview last week for a part time job. This would be fine because I can supplement with the Uber job.

With all of this time of unemployment, I haven’t been able to pay my mortgage and therefore my house is in foreclosure. I think I already mentioned this. It’ll be sold by auction on 3/13. I saw two attorneys trying to do bankruptcy but both said I couldn’t do it. I’m guessing it’s because I don’t have enough income right now.

So…now, I’m praying to God that I can qualify to get into an apartment. As you can imagine, my credit is shot to hell! Apparently I have 6 months after the sale of the house. But honestly, I don’t want to wait that long. I’d like to find something and move and begin my new life in my own space! There’s still a link to my PayPal over on the right if you’d like to donate to my moving cause. If you’re the praying type, please pray that I can get in somewhere. Or send positive thoughts.

I’ve decided to withdraw from school until I’m settled somewhere because I’ve been so depressed and overwhelmed that I was finding it nearly impossible to focus. I’m hoping I’ll be somewhere by Fall and can resume at that time.

Also, I’m looking into getting my dog Oaklee as a support or service animal so that I can take her with me. I’ll have to find a new home for Xena. Shes too big for an apartment and needs room to run. I’ll be sad to see her go of course.

On another sad note, my dog Teddy, will be put down this Friday. He’s my Pomeranian that has been around since we got the house. He’s old and not doing too well. My daughter Kayleigh made the appointment. She and my other daughter and their dad are planning to take him. I don’t know if I wanna go or not. I can’t stand the thought of seeing him put down or my ex. I just don’t know if I can handle it. I don’t know what to do!

Life! It’s hard!

Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace and happiness.

Dottie May 🌻

About DorothyMarie

I'm 49 years old, divorced with two adult daughters.
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1 Response to Life is Hard

  1. theresaly520 says:

    Hello Dottie, I was thinking about what I would do for the Lenten season, and decided to create a prayer list for 40 days. You’ll be in my prayers. Wishing you hope in the midst of sorrow. ❤


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