Feeling Desperate – Struggles

Good morning from here! I’m in Michigan for those that don’t know. However, not sure if I’ll stay in Michigan much longer. As many probably know, I lost my house due to foreclosure. After losing my long time job and marriage, I just couldn’t afford it and this was the result. I still have some time before I HAVE to move, but I need to work on packing. I still have bills to pay as well.

I have submitted dozens (more than dozens actually) of resumes to try to find a regular job. I just keep getting denials. I don’t know if it’s because of my age or that I don’t have a college degree or that I just worked for that one company too long and have no other experience. Maybe it’s a combination of all three of those things. I’m feeling so defeated as a result. My unemployment benefits have been exhausted. I am doing Uber Eats deliveries to try to earn some money. I do enjoy doing it; however it’s not always the best pay. Maybe it’ll get better as the weather gets worse and people don’t want to go out themselves anymore.

I’m trying not to let depression (severe) set in. I’m still coloring or reading and going to the lakeshore when I can; doing things that bring about joy the best as possible.

However, financially speaking I’m not doing well. I did set up a GoFundMe at one point, but they take out a percentage of the money. I know they have the right to do that but…

I really don’t want to beg for money and I don’t want to stand out on a corner panhandling (although I bet they make better money than me). However, I really do need some help. I’m over $1000 behind on my car payment. Car insurance is due next week and I still need to pay my electric and gas. I never pictured myself in this position. Quite frankly, I hate myself right now. I know that there are so many worse off than me as well and if I could, I’d be helping them instead! I have a PayPal link over there on the right. That’s one method to contribute. I also have a cash app on my phone where you can send money as well. My username is $DorothyMarie71. If you have the urge to donate or know someone who can, I’d forever be grateful and would like to pay back as soon as I’m able to. I really don’t know what else to do. I have no parents or grandparents to ask. And the family I do have, quite frankly also struggles.

I’m headed out on this rainy day to do some Ubering. I’m hoping for a good fruitful day!

Peace – Love – Smiles – Blessings

DottieMay ❤

About DorothyMarie

I'm 48 years old, divorced with two adult daughters. I own one Pitbull Terrier named Oaklee Anne. It’s just her and I right now and it’s still an adjustment! I started school in January of 2018 and am studying Psychology. I have a long road ahead of me but am excited about it.
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