So you want to know a bit about me?
I am currently 46 years old, divorced with two wonderful daughters. We have four dogs (1 Pitbull Terrier named Oaklee and 1 German Shepherd named Xena, 1 Long Haired Husky/Wolf/Malamute named Kaya, and 1 Pomeranian named Teddy Bear). I used to work full time in the Information Technology field, but recently had my position eliminated so I’ve returned to school and am studying Psychology! I know, total career change. I’ll be attending school for a long time.
The purpose of this blog…
I’ve struggled with my weight my whole adult life. I have also battled depression and anxiety as well as schizoaffective disorder as well as low self esteem. I don’t remember what it’s like to be under 200 lbs as I haven’t been there since high school. I was once a hefty 403 lbs. that was early 2009. I did have weight loss surgery in December of 2009. I had the vertical sleeve gastrectomy. I don’t talk much about it because I was not very successful. I got down to a low of 253. That was the summer of 2011. My dad passed away in November of that year. It brought me down, but come the new year of 2012 I started counseling and started back at the gym and was doing pretty well. In March of 2012, my dear sister friend went missing one evening and the next day was found face down in a nearby pond. Her death tore me up worse than most. I fell into a deeper depression. Her death brought back memories of my moms and dads death and I felt so incredibly overcome by grief. I then started thinking of my own life and death. I had some nightmares. I started counseling weekly focusing on grief.
Late summer of 2012 I had my first panic/anxiety attack. It scared me. I was off work for a while. By this time the weight started coming back. In late March of 2013 I had another attack. This time I ended up in the hospital to make sure it wasn’t a stroke or something. This was even scarier than the first. I decided to stop focusing on weight loss and focus instead on my mental well being and getting better sleep.
My weight continues to be an issue as does mental illness at times. However, my medication has done wonders and I’ve managed to stay out of the hospital for nearly a year now.
This blog is evolving into more than just a weight loss journey…it’s mental health, it’s reading, it may be schooling…it’s life in general.
Thanks for stopping by!