Good News Update

Hello Friends!

Wow! It has been awhile since I’ve posted. Quite a bit has been going on as well. First of all, I was pretty depressed and anxious about my power being out.  It was out from Friday November 2 until Wednesday the 7th.  I was sleeping here at home at night and it was cold. I slept in the family room on the big chair bundled in layers of clothes and two blankets, plus the dogs kept me warm.  During the day, I spent time at my friends house. She had given me a key to her home and let me spend time there so I could use her WiFi and try to get things done.  God bless her! School was getting difficult to focus on. I was trying hard to find ways to pay to get my power restored.  I did get a few donations to the GoFundMe I had set up so that was a huge help.  By that Wednesday, I had had enough of being without power and water and had no luck in finding any assistance so I called Consumers Energy back and just said I need my power back. Can you take the $55 and put me on that payment plan you offered?  This time I talked to a really nice woman. She said she would take the money and put my account on hold for 9 days and gave me the name of another place to try for assistance. So my power was turned back on! Hallelujah!! I did lose all the food in my refrigerators/freezer though.  I had just went shopping too. So that was a bummer.  I tried calling the place the woman at Consumers recommended but they just referred me back to DHS. It was a nightmare.  So when Consumers called me back we just put me on the plan which is $193 a month.  It’s pretty steep I know and I’m a little nervous because it’s not the only monthly bill I need to worry about.

On the night I lost power, I applied to be a Shipt Shopper (someone who grocery shops and delivers groceries). I did the first part of the application process that night. The second part, I did on Saturday morning in the parking lot of a McDonalds restaurant. I had to do video responses to their questions.  I was so incredibly delighted to wake up on November 9th to a text that said:

“Congrats, Dorothy! You’re an approved Shipt Shopper. Your shopper gear will arrive in a few days! Check your email for more information!!”  

My friends, I will tell you that I literally cried with excitement when I read that text! I stood up and danced and praised the Lord right then and there. I am not even kidding! Finally, I would be getting some income.  There were some more things I had to do in the process. I had to go through some online orientations, alcohol training in order to be able to deliver alcohol and I had to go to an in person orientation training as well.  I’ve done all those.  I downloaded the app to my phone and took a picture of myself in the Shipt sweatshirt I got.  I’ll put that below.  The only thing left was to get insurance on my car because they needed proof of insurance and to be honest, mine had lapsed due to non-payment.  Here’s where my anxiety crept up again because I had no idea how I was going to pull this off as I didn’t have a lot of money in the bank.  I stopped by State Farm Insurance. That’s where I had insurance before and they quoted me over $700 to get started back up due to it being so long since I had insurance. That wasn’t going to work! So I came home and looked online and checked Progressive. I was able to get started online through them with $149. That worked for what I had! I was so grateful! So now I’m insured and provided that to Shipt. So as far as I know, I’m good to go. I just want to read through their online help again.  I will admit that I’m a bit nervous to do my first shops.  There are two reasons…. 1) Winter/Snow, my car sitting low to the ground and me not being very sure footed. I hope people keep their driveways, walks and steps clear and 2) Thanksgiving…it’s going to be busy I’ll bet.  Pray for me!  Other than that I’m excited!  Here’s me in my gear!  Here’s a link you should consider Shipt if it’s in your area!  Check Shipt out!

ShiptSelfie

On the 7th, I also had my therapy appointment and my med management appointment with my Psychiatrist.  I had been struggling with focusing on school and had been in contact with my professor and had let him know the situation. He had suggested the possibility of taking a break and suggested I check with my academic advisor.  So I emailed her and filled her in on the situation.  I also talked with my therapist about it as well.  I had a very emotional day on that day because I broke down in tears at therapy and then again at my med management appointment. And, my blood pressure was up at my med management appointment as well.  I hadn’t had issues with anxiety in a long time but due to the issues with my power being off and struggling with money and bills for so long, it was coming to a head.  My academic advisor, therapist and Psychiatrist all agreed that it was probably for the best that I take a break from school and focus on the other issues in my life.  My Psych also said that he could prescribe a med for me to take just as needed for anxiety.  Because my rosacea had also started to flare up a bit and that was bothersome. He said the med would help with that as well.  He prescribed Vistaril.  I’ve only taken one so far since he prescribed them.

On November 12, I took a beginner knitting class offered through North Kent Connect. It was free to me and upon completion I get a $20 card to use in their thrift store. I get to pick up the card on Monday the 19th.  The class taught us how to cast on and do a wash cloth. Well, it was only a two hour class and I was a bit frustrated trying to get those needles to work for me.  Needless to say, I didn’t get much done at all.  I got to take everything home with me and hopefully I can figure out how to finish the thing.  I do have directions. And YouTube has everything.  Here’s what I got done so far:

Knitting

I hope you’re not laughing too hard!  I got a little more than that done now, but I really struggled with it.  The needles they gave were called circle needles I guess and they’re made of wood.  I really want to finish it and be proud of my accomplishment.  It’s already been several days since I’ve touched it so I’m afraid I’ll be confused and not have a clue what I’m doing again.

As far as my activity goes, I’m trying.  The weather is getting colder and the snow has been flying on occasion.  The other day, Oaklee and I went on a two mile walk on the White Pine trail.  It was freezing cold but I was proud that I got out and did it.  The first mile was pretty easy, but the mile back, I started to feel the pain in my upper thighs.  Here’s a pic of each of us. This was at the end of the walk by the Rockford dam.

After our walk, I decided to take Oaklee to TSC (Tractor Supply Company) to give her a bath at their self wash station. It was easier there than doing it at home.  It’s $10 and after 10 washes, you get a free one.  I already had one wash because of giving Kaya one the other day.  She didn’t care for getting a bath but I hope to do it more often.  Now I just need to get my Xena in there sometime.  Here’s a picture of Oaklee looking pitiful but cute in the tub:

OakleeBathNov2018

I’ve been doing so much cleaning around the house the last few days.  I got my huge refrigerator ready to sell and it’s now posted on the Facebook Marketplace.  I think I’m going to post it on Craigslist as well.  It’s a very large commercial size side by side.   It’s a Sub-Zero brand and I’m trying to sell it for $950 but hope to go no lower than $800.  I’m just hoping it sells because right now it’s just sitting in another part of my kitchen.

I’m struggling with the colder weather and not being able to get out as much. I know you can still walk and hike during this time of year but I don’t have a winter coat yet.  A woman from church did give me $30 in gift cards for Mel Trotter Ministry thrift store so I want to go there and see if they have anything.  I do want to stay active as much as I can.  And being outside is what I like most to be honest.  I already miss the lakeshore so much!  Maybe the weather will be cooperative and I can drive out there tomorrow after church?  Hmmm.

My GoFundMe is still active as is my PayPal.  My PayPal is over in the side bar.  I only say this because I am still so far behind.  But I know this is a tough time of year for everyone because Christmas is right around the corner and Thanksgiving is this coming Thursday! Unbelievable!

I could keep going but I think I’ll save some writing for tomorrow.

I wish you all well.  Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.

❤ DottieMay

 

 

 

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Rough Day

Hello Friends!

Today (Friday 11-02-2018) has been a bit of a challenge I must say. I woke up to find that my power was shut off during the night! I was so disappointed. I had tried to apply for assistance through the Department of Health and Human Services (DHHS) but I was denied. They said it was because I hadn’t made enough payments within a six month period! Well that’s only because of being unemployed and divorced and trying to adjust to a single income and no income!

I called Consumers Energy to see if they could offer any help but without me having any income there wasn’t much they could do. They gave me the number of some agencies I could try calling. So I called Salvation Army and I was denied there because DHHS denied me. They’re both state funded agencies. I didn’t have any luck finding help. I didn’t know what to do!

I decided to leave the house for awhile and go to my happy place. While out, my iPad and phone could be charged in the car. I didn’t do much walking at the lake but I did some reading. I also prayed and did some thinking.

When I got home, I set up a GoFundMe campaign in an attempt to get some help. I hate asking for money but I feel desperate to be honest. I’ll be keeping track of donations so I can pay back eventually. I’m leaving the link here as well. GoFundMe

I also decided to apply to be a Shipt shopper. I’ll complete the interview process later when there’s daylight as it involves video. I’m also going to apply to do DoorDash which is restaurant delivery. I will admit that I’m a rather shy person so I’m nervous about both of these. But say a prayer and send happy thoughts that I may land one or both of these to start bringing in some money.

To end this post, I’ll leave a couple photos from my happy place at Grand Haven City Beach.

Beach

Sunset

Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.

❤ Dottie May

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My Adventures 11-01-2018

Hello Readers!

Happy New Month! I can’t believe it’s already November! It’s been a couple days since I’ve blogged. Did you miss me? haha . Did you all have a good Halloween?  Me, not exactly.  Well, I shouldn’t say it was completely horrible. I did take Oaklee out for a walk at a really nice park during the day. I haven’t taken her out in such a long time that she was practically afraid to leave the house. And, I had to lift her into the car and that wasn’t easy. She’s a bit heavy for me.  But once we were at the park, she enjoyed it as did I. She was so good too. I was very proud. She didn’t even growl or bark at other dogs. She was curious at times and pulled on the leash a bit, but never growled. I was impressed.  The day was nice.  The evening wasn’t as great.  I just sat at home and watched movies by myself. And I was doing alright until I got on Facebook. I then saw all the families and their kiddos all dressed up and celebrating. I then lost it emotionally and broke down in tears. I guess I missed the events of Halloween more than I thought. This was my first as a single person.  I probably should’ve just stayed off Facebook.  I’m going to have to come up with some ideas for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I’m so dreading them. I’m afraid I’ll be alone again. I’m more concerned about Christmas than I am Thanksgiving. I’m really not much of a cook anyway.  Enough about that…

Today’s adventure took me to PJ Hoffmaster State Park. I hadn’t been there in probably five years or better.  The last time I was there was with my ex and youngest daughter when we took her there to take some senior pictures. She graduated in 2013 so it had to be around summer/fall of 2012.  I first walked along the beach. It was so peaceful. The waves were very mellow. I found a place to sit for a little bit and just took it all in. It was just perfect.  The only thing that would’ve made it better is to have the perfect man there to hold my hand.  Yes, I do sometimes think of that. The perfect lover.

From the beach, I went to another part of the park where you can climb a dune (via a large staircase). When I reached the staircase and looked at it, I began to have second thoughts. It really looked rather intimidating.  But, I took a deep breath and began the climb. I decided to count the steps as I went.  After some time, I reached the top and counted 176 stairs! That’s quite a bit if you ask me.  I was so incredibly proud of myself. I even cried a little which I captured in video. If you follow me on YouTube, you can see that in the video I uploaded today.  I dreaded the idea of having to go back down the stairs. However, it didn’t take as long as I thought it would and it was a bit easier than I thought it’d be too.

I will admit though, that my knees are quite achy this evening. And I’m a bit tired. I’m sure I’ll sleep well tonight. All that fresh air! I still don’t know what I’m going to do when the snow comes. I enjoy getting out in nature so much. I’ll feel like a caged rat! I’ll get depressed.  I may need to try to find some warm clothes and still try to get out in the cold.  I don’t know.  Hopefully, I’ll find a job soon!  Speaking of which, the link to donate to my PayPal is still over on the side bar.  I hate asking for money, but I’m in a rough spot.  If it’s in your heart, feel free.  Thank you!

Here are a few pictures from today.  I hope you enjoy.

Overall, I enjoyed my time out there.  I got over 4,000 steps in according to Sweatcoin.  I’m now up to $181.84 total.  I had a YouTube friend of mine transfer her coin to me. She transferred $116.42 to me! I was so excited and so very grateful! Now, Sweatcoin just needs to update their system to pay out to PayPal! That’d be awesome.

I’m not sure if I’ll be going on any adventure tomorrow.  I cleaned out my closet the other day and put several items on Facebook Marketplace for sale. My niece is actually buying a few pieces and I’m meeting her tomorrow afternoon so she can get the pieces from me.  It might rain too, I’m not sure.  Plus, I wouldn’t be surprised if my knees ache even more tomorrow than they do now. I may need to give my body a day to rest.

Well, I suppose that’s all for now.  Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.

❤ Dottie May

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My Friday Adventures – 10-26-2018

Hello Friends!

I’m posting this a day late as you may be able to tell? I was busy with other things when I got home last night.

I left yesterday with one destination in mind as a fall color tour.  But I actually ended up stopping at two other places that I didn’t intend on. One because it was new to me and I had never been there and wanted to check it out. The other because I was just so close that I couldn’t pass up the opportunity.  If you are a YouTube subscriber or follow me on Facebook or Instagram, then you already know where I went. If not, then you’ll be surprised.  I really enjoyed my time despite being alone.  Except for one part.  I was sitting along side the road taking in the scenery and there was this young couple setting up to take photos of themselves.  It just struck a nerve. A year prior, I had been up there to the same place with my ex. Although, he was unhappy so we were nowhere near as happy as this young couple was.  I don’t know what it is exactly, but sometimes I have a really hard time seeing other couples holding hands or kissing or just being genuinely happy. How sad is that? I think maybe it’s because they have what I desire.  I sat there in my car and broke down in tears!  I cried pretty hard for a bit.  I briefly thought back to the year before when I was up there with my ex. I recalled the photo we took together and how absolutely miserable he looked while I smiled. Here I loved this man and here he had every intention of wanting to leave me but for whatever reason chose to wait until the new year.  That picture is long gone. I’ve deleted so many photos from my past. I don’t need the reminders.  Some photos I did put in a file for my girls. But I deleted everything from my phone and iPad and Facebook and Instagram.  The only place you’ll still see him is YouTube because I haven’t dared gone back and looked at old videos!

My first stop was actually an unplanned one. It was Deadman’s Hill. What an amazing view!! I’m so glad I saw the sign as I was driving on 131N! Here’s a few photos that I took with my phone:

My second stop was my actual intended destination for the day. It was the Tunnel of Trees. That’s what it’s known as. It’s in Harbor Springs, MI. It’s a 20-mile winding drive along Lake Michigan that has amazing fall color and lake views. There’s also some pretty darn nice houses as well. I couldn’t see living there in the winter, but man would it be a nice Summer/Fall place.  Although you really don’t have direct lake access at least not all the places did.  But man, amazing views!!  I tried to get some decent pictures.  Here are a few:

My final stop was the other unplanned stop, but I just had to make the extra 30 minute drive! I don’t really have many photos because it was SO cold and misty.  Surprise! It’s the Mighty Mac! I wasn’t far from the Mackinaw Bridge so I just had to drive just a little bit further north from the Tunnel of Trees!  It was pretty blustery and cold though!

Mackinaw Bridge

Mighty Mac

After visiting the bridge, I got some gas and an energy drink and some chips. I know that’s definitely not the best choice for someone who has had weight loss surgery.  The energy drink proved to be a bad idea when it came time to go to bed too. I couldn’t sleep for anything. Normally, I will fall asleep watching YouTube videos or listening to music. But nope! I was up until 5:30 before I fell asleep! Crazy! Then I was awake again by 8 or so.  I definitely didn’t get enough sleep last night. Lesson learned!

So, aside from the little emotional breakdown at the Tunnel of Trees, I enjoyed my little day trip and it was pretty therapeutic. I got some beautiful views. It did lightly rain in a few areas, but that didn’t ruin my trip at all. I’m glad I went.

On another note, today marks one year since I signed the severance papers and walked out of Meijer. That’s where I worked for 28 1/2 years before being let go due to a department reorg. It was a bittersweet memory to wake up and see on Facebook.  I had no idea I was leaving that day and walking into the most difficult year of my life! It’s true. This past year has been the most difficult, with the job loss, divorce and another job loss! I’m still trying to find a job. I’m so far behind on my bills. I’m struggling. However, some good came out of the year too! I was baptized, I became a member of a great church, I started school, I’ve been losing weight and have learned just how incredibly strong I am!  Sure, I have my days and moments still.  This past year has been a hell of a ride!  But you know, I can say that I’m on the right path now. I feel some anxiety about being without a job and behind on bills currently, but I know God has something better in mind for me! I’m waiting patiently for the door to open to income.

Before I go, I have to should a huge THANK YOU to Eric! No last names because you know who you are. He donated to my PayPal and I’m ever so grateful! May God bless you. You’re beautiful. Keep blessing others with your amazing work! I know I’m in awe!

Wherever you are in this world, I wish you peace, love and happiness!

❤ Dottie

 

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Tearful Goodbye – See You in 6 Months

Hello Friends!

I wasn’t sure what to title this blog post.  I’m just going to share what I did today.  I got a call from church and they said someone dropped off an envelop with my name on it. It was from “anonymous”. So I went and picked it up. Got in my car and opened it. It contained $160! I sat there and cried and thanked God for this person or persons. I couldn’t believe it. I am so blessed with such a wonderful church family.

After my tears dried up, I went to my gym (YMCA) and turned in a form to put my membership on hold for three months. This way they won’t pull any money from my account (there’s no money there anyway, but still). Hopefully, I’ll have a job before they start pulling again. I’m so glad they offer this option. The other option was to completely cancel the membership and re-join when I could.  But right now, I get a good discount so I didn’t want to lose that either.

From there, I went to visit with my grandma and uncle. They are leaving to go back to Florida for the winter on Sunday. So this was my last visit with them for 6 months. I’m going to miss them so much! Grandma said if I’m in the area, I can always stop in.  I’ll have to seriously consider a visit. Problem is, I have no money and no job at the moment so that seems highly unlikely.  But if I get a job, I would have to seriously consider going to visit. I would drive down. And that would be my longest drive that I’ve taken by myself. As of right now, my longest drive so far has been to Tennessee to visit my other uncle. That was a great visit too.  I had a great time at my grandma’s today.  We did a lot of talking and watching TV. She made me dinner too. I’ve included a picture of it.  It was roast beef and gravy over mashed potatoes.  I also included a picture of the kitty cat that my uncle rescued at the beginning of summer. The cat was basically living outside around their house. He’s been taking care of her all summer. Now he’s taking her with them to Florida.  That cat has been so spoiled. She’s a sweetheart though. Her name is Skipper.

The last picture I’m including is a picture of myself.  I’m wearing my Cornerstone University sweatshirt. It’s special to me because when I first got this sweatshirt, it didn’t fit. It does now. It actually fits quite nicely.  I’m glad it fits too because this week is Student Appreciation Week and they’re holding a contest. You have to take a picture of yourself sporting your school attire showing your school spirit and post it to Facebook. Apparently, the best one will win a prize.  I was just happy to be able to participate. Don’t know that I’ll actually win anything. Doesn’t really matter to me.  Just being able to fit in the sweatshirt now is prize enough for me.  76 lbs. down!! Yes!

Here are the pictures:

That dinner was actually really good. Not shown are the few little pieces of Brussel Sprouts I had.  I normally don’t care for them, but I told grandma I would try them. They were actually pretty good. I was surprised that I liked them.  And isn’t Skipper kitty so cute?

Well, I hope you all are having a beautiful day. My thoughts and prayers go out to all affected by the hurricanes and other natural disasters going on in the world.

I wish you all peace, love and happiness.

❤ Dottie

 

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Tuesday Workout and a Thank You!

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Good evening friends! Or do I say good morning at this point? It’s now 12:04 a.m. and technically now it’s Wednesday.  I haven’t gone to bed yet so for me it’s still Tuesday and I’m going to refer to it as ‘today’. hahaha

So, today I went to a new park in Ferrysburg, MI called Ottawa Sands Park. I hiked around the lake there. I’m going to insert some pictures below. It was a nice day as well. I’d say it was about 50 degrees and the sun was shining. I wore two sweatshirts, one being a hoodie. The trail around the lake was all sand so it was quite the workout. I actually stopped after the half way point and sat down for a little bit to rest.  I could have turned around at the half way point but I didn’t.  I walked the entire trail around the lake. The last length of the lake, the wind picked up and I swear it made it 10x harder. My nose started running and I didn’t have any kleenex on me. I was so grateful when I finally got back to my car.  If I calculated correctly, I walked 1.76 miles.

At one stretch of the walk there’s a Bald Eagles Nest and there’s signage that asks you to stay on the trail and be quiet. I took a picture of the sign and of the nest that I saw. Unfortunately, I didn’t see any eagles. That would have been so cool if I had though.  I thought the park was very nice. They could place a bench or two on along the trail, but I survived it.  Here are some pictures:

After I finished my walk, I went down the road to the other park that is right on Lake Michigan. I just love being on the lakeshore. The waves are so soothing. I opened my car window just a little so I could hear the waves and I pushed my seat back and leaned it back and I just relaxed. I nearly fell asleep! It was wonderful!

After spending some time relaxing and doing a little reading in my book “Book Thief”, I headed back to Sparta so I could go to my GriefShare group.

I have to shout out and say a great big THANK YOU to Jim!! I really am so very grateful for your donation to my PayPal!! I appreciate it more than you know. Please know that once I’m established in a job and am caught up on my bills, I will pay you back. I’m not giving last names or second names. You know who you are. With all my heart…thank you and God bless. ❤ .  If you’re a non believer, may the sun shine upon you. And may all your wishes come true.  If by chance you’d like to donate to my cause, you’ll find the link over on the right under My Links. I thank you in advance for your generosity. Please know I hate asking for money. I intend on paying everyone back!

I’d say I had a pretty good day today. I know I’ll sleep pretty good after all that fresh air. My legs are already sore. They’ll probably be even more sore tomorrow.

Oh and because of my financial situation, I am putting my gym membership on a 3-month hold. It is no cost to me to do that. And I pray to God I have a job by the time the 3 months are up.  I wish I could do that with every bill!

Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.

❤ Dottie

 

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Sunday Adventures

Hello Friends!

It’s been a few days hasn’t it?  Since that 30 day challenge ended, it seems as though I’ve been out of ideas on what to write about. My life is just not very exciting it seems. It’s just me day in and day out. Well, the dogs are here too, but they don’t talk. Yesterday I spent the entire day doing school work. I tried doing some work on Friday but the site was down so I was unable to get in and do any.  I fell a little behind as a result. I completed my final presentation and recorded it and got it uploaded to YouTube.  I’m going to log on and see what the professor had to say about it and a little while.  This is the final week of this class. I have two assignments left to do. I have to write a 5-6 page paper and I have to respond to a forum post. I have until tomorrow night at 11:59 p.m.  My next class is Introduction to Fine Arts. That should be an interesting class.  It starts on Tuesday.

Today, after church I decided to take another ride out to the lakeshore. I intended to go to a new park out there in Ferrysburg; however, when I got there it was packed. There were no parking spots available. So instead, I went down the road further to North Beach Park.  I hadn’t ever been to this park before and it was right on Lake Michigan.  Due to it being pretty cold outside, there weren’t many people there.  I got outside and walked along the beach a bit and took a couple pictures.  I also took some video and posted to my YouTube channel.  I was feeling really down and depressed and on the verge of tears.  That’s a big part of the reason why I took a trip out there.  The water is always soothing to my soul.  Being behind on all my bills and not having a job and having no luck getting one is really starting to take its toll on me.  I applied for assistance with my utilities (heat and electric), but was denied because I didn’t make enough payments within the last six months.  I’m here to tell you that the main reason for that is due to divorce and trying to adjust to a single income and then no income.  I couldn’t believe it! I was so disappointed. Some things just don’t make sense to me sometimes.  I don’t qualify for hardship assistance on my mortgage or credit cards because I have no form of income.  Seriously things just don’t make sense. I mean really! And I’m not disabled and I’m not a senior citizen and I don’t have small children.  So I’m just stuck here on my own little island to suffer.  I just went off on a tangent….my apologies. Let me get back to my adventure.

Here are some a few pictures I took at the lakeshore.  It was so breezy and cold. It was probably about 42 or 43 degrees, but felt a lot colder.  I probably should have had a winter jacket on.

Honestly, I love being by the water! It really does do well for my mood. I felt better when I left. The sun peaked out for a little while I was there. I was glad for that.

After I left there, I stopped at Nunica Cemetery. I don’t think I mentioned this before but I volunteer for findagrave.com. I take photos of graves. There was a request for a photo for that cemetery. That also happens to be where my grandparents and great-grandparents are buried so I figured I could visit them as well.  I walked all over looking for the grave of this John guy but I had no luck finding him.  I’m not sure if I’m going to go back another day when maybe it’s a little warmer or not.  They give you 14 days to do the assignment.  I also have the option of giving up the assignment to someone else.  I’m not sure what I want to do.  With the walking at the beach and the cemetery, I was able to make a whole $1.28 in sweatcoin (2,202 steps).  Better than nothing. I’m up to $44.96 which isn’t bad for someone who hasn’t been out walking much.  If you’re interested in checking this app out, here’s my link sweatcoin.  I’d much appreciate it.

That pretty much wraps up my adventures for the day.  I’m home now and having my first meal of the day.  Italian style wedding soup (from a can).

Okay so I’m going back to my depression just a bit.  Had I just come home right after church today, I’m almost certain I would’ve climbed into bed and laid there the rest of the day.  I would’ve isolated myself and that’s not something I want to do. I do not want to get any worse.  I certainly don’t want to end up hospitalized again. Been there…done that…more than once and I don’t want to do it again.  Especially since I don’t have a husband anymore to take care of me.  I hate the idea of asking for money, but I don’t know what to do at this point.  If there is anyone out there willing to donate to my cause, I would forever be grateful and I plan to keep track so that I can pay back once I have established employment.  I figure the best way is through my PayPal account this way there is no percentage taken away.  I absolutely hate asking for money.  Please try not to think any less of me.  Trust me, I feel awful as it is.  God bless you and if you’re not a believer, then may the sun shine upon you.

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Wherever you are in this beautiful world, I wish you peace, love and happiness.

❤ Dottie

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